H. Crosswinds Of Time

More months passed by, with Dax alternating in mood between the contentedness of being 'in the now' to feelings of frustration fueled by a gnawing feeling that there was a need for something more.  On one night about 6 months after the previous intense dream, Dax had another compelling dream involving yet another muse.  This one was a female muse - who seemed to be describing or even mocking his predicament as he was being helplessly propelled through time.

[Scene: Dax's own passage through time - showing not only how it ages him (and others) but also how it transforms and changes us both externally and internally.]

[See song lyrics here]

On awakening, Dax was again stirred by the words of both this dream and the previous one.  He decided that perhaps he should do something - since time waits for no one.  He began to see each day in which he had failed to enjoy life as a small tragedy.  And by failing to pursue his passion or what has meaning for him, Dax had in essence wasted may days - weeks - months - years even.

Dax believed in this idea of pursuing ones passions firmly, but one problem was that he truly was conflicted concerning his passions and what he truly wanted.   Even when he had in the past 'resolved to resolve' this dilemma - he had found that he could not 'make' the alternate or competing ideas or ideals abate.  But perhaps it was not a single focus that he needed, but a conglomerate of ALL the things meaningful to him.  Just because there are inconsistencies or conflicts does not wholly invalidate any of these many-fold aspects to life.  

It became more apparent to Dax to be passionate concerning many philosophies and pursuits even if they were inconsistent in some ways. This is better than to be dogmatic about a single ideal and put on blinders to everything else - all in the name of being 'consistent' or appearing congruent to others. After all, is it so wrong to be inconsistent?  

This new revelation led him deeper into researching many of the 'old' religions and belief systems.  He began to see that everyone is operating within a 'belief system' - whether they realized it or not.  Some belief systems were formal, others were not.  Some were religious or spiritual in nature, some practical, some scientific, and some just a random collection of experiences that an individual had learned from.

He began to look for commonalities in the more formally documented systems and found that many of them had almost identical sayings or beliefs. Perhaps more importantly he looked for tenets or ideas that would 'ring true' to his inner self.  Things that make sense, and beliefs that are beneficial and not harmful to himself or others.  He began to realize that negative beliefs - even when they seem true - are rarely beneficial.  So he decided to focus on A) Truth B) Benevolence (to self and others).

Coincidentally, during this time, he also began playing more on an old instrument known as a 'guitar'. As he deepened his understanding of music and the tonal relationships of the various notes and modal patterns on the guitar, he found that he could enter a somewhat meditative state when playing the guitar on occasion - and he found the effect was at times both calming and exhilarating.

So he moved forward, armed with this arsenal of combined ideas and passions. He tried to be 'in the moment' when the situation seemed to require, and when he found himself questioning he focused on these many deepening aforementioned avenues of interest [in all the songs up to this point].  And when his thinking took him outside of these known passions or interests- or when he was even questioning those things - he would guide his own judgement and discernment by the test of what was truthful and of good value (beneficial).

Words and Music written by David Denton

Lead Vocals by Cat Denton
All instruments performed by David Denton
Recorded and Produced by David Denton  

The lead vocals by Cat Denton were spectacular and spot on in my opinion! Thanks again Cat.